Shiz...

If youre gone

2006-05-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

I think Ive already lost you
I think youre already gone
I think Im finally scared now
You think Im weak - but I think youre wrong
I think youre already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now Im relaxed - I cant be sure

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing

If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet youre hard to get over
I bet the room just wont shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - that I know too much
I cant relate and thats a problem Im feeling

If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing

If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

-Matchbox20-

Unwell

2006-05-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

-matchbox20-

You are beautiful

2006-05-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high, [ - video/radio edited version]
Fucking high, [ - CD version]
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

-Jamesblunt-

Tears and rain

2006-05-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

-Jamesblunt-

Goodbye my lover

2006-05-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-Jamesblunt-

It doesnt get any better!

2006-05-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

I am really tired!Exhausted ........The acne problem doesnt seem to go away.....its even getting worse....who would understand how i feel when i see my self in the mirror with scars and blemishes every where...this might not sound serious to most people who dont have acne but they will never understand how it feels..! It really hurts when people look at ur face and say....whats wrong with ur face??? why so many pimples?...Fuck it! if i know the reason,i would have cured it a long time ago!
And even if i know d reason....i had done everything i could! It just doesnt go away!!!!
I cant be mad at them as they r just curious....Actually,what answer do ppl expect from me....?
Ireally dont know.....in my heart i will say stop asking this fucking question again!
Most doctors say stress and lack of sleep causes pimples or acne!...So?
Do u expect me to sleep early everyday at 9? If i wanna sleep early,,that doesnt mean i can get d sleep!Furthermore,A levels isnt an easy course...there r tonnes of tutorials waiting for me!How can i sleep early?Besides,having stress is inevitsble...its my final semester this year!Its either make or break!...No stress?.impossible!even the most optimistic person will feel it!Unless they dont care bout their studies.....
I really dont know how long will this go on......till d whole of my face is full with blemishes?or when i am 30 years old with all my hair dropping..?i dont know...who can help me...i dont know...not even the person i love will care .....coz she is not gonna be there for me ..
Why on my face?..why........its my face u know..its d first impression u give ppl!I have feelings and emotions too!!All i want is to be good ..........to have a clean look....is it that tough?...
Why is this happening to me?.... i am really tired.........i am a person in need of love and care .....
i am in need of support.....i am running out of steam.....i will break down one day...Icant climb out of this myself.....please re;ease me.....please...........

I chose not to believe!

2006-04-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

i chose not to believe..thats why i have been suffering for d past year...i dont know d answer..and i dont know why i am acting like this.....I have been searching for happiness and i get it...but it was always a shortlived one...after that...it will come back to haunt me again....it haunts me deep....!!!real deep!..Bet no one can imagine i am so cheerful in d morning but half dead at night..no one understands me....not even my mom and dad...i dont really have someone to go to or a shoulder to lean on whenever i am down...i cant be bothering my friend all d time whenever i am down...d only person i told was jiing..d one and only i trusted.!(thanks bro!) ..for willing to hear my frust!....I really need some caring and some encouragement .....exams is near...i dont wanna screw it up...i wanna do good!!..I am just a normal human with ordinary brains ! I am not a 12 a's student and i am not an oscar winner.....i just want to be happy and ...........to have her back.....!!is all this possoble?..i know its up to myself but i am not d only one living in this world! i Cant walk alone all d time! I cant make myself happy all d time !!!!I am desperate for love and care.!please give me some.....please.......................................................................................................................................

Screwed by mistakes

2005-09-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

Well,my second exam is over ...after that ,it is time to face my nightmare..."receiving my results"....I did really badly this time....all my marks droped in every single subject...oh god...sad huh??:-( U know who is the main culprit for this??...me......i failed myself for making loads of stupid mistakes in my exam.....damn disappointed....i know this sounds freakin bored and lame but it really hurts man!!!.doin soo much of work and ended up failing ,I was really furious with myself..i kept asking myself what had gone wrong in me??!!!Lost my brains??!!urgh!!!!!!!!so frustated....!!wanna know what is the worst mistake i made??haha...i lost 12points just because of one "-" sig man!!!!total shit....really shit.......what to do????:-ojust hope for d best lor.....haha..

Its been awhile...

2005-09-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly,after 4 months of studying at TAR college..this is only my second time using the free internet service provided by the college.. This ismostly because this place is usually packed with students..u dont even get a chance to get near the com..haha(jokingly) but one thing is for real..the connection speed is really slow...really..........SLoW..hehe....Hm..why am i writting all this crap...??Basicly,,just wanna kill some time as i am waiting for another class....so crapping is the best way ....^_^...Well,just had my chemistry exam yesterdayand it was quite tough..Cant believe that the objective questions were actually harder than the subjective questions..haha..cant do anything now..just hope for the best and focus on other papers to come..which is..physics,furthermath,math and gp ...Oh My God...these exams are killing me man...didnt have a good night sleep for quite some time d.......Oops...its time for class..i better go now..or else.......!1!1@#+$ %@@#.. . good luck dude...!

The People's Fear..Haze!

2005-08-12T19:22:00.000+08:00

Wow!I have not experienced haze as serious as this b4!!As far as i can recall,i was standard 4 when i saw people on the street wearing mask to protect themselves from the haze...i guess the haze was quite serious that time ...After 8 years,it struck again and it got more serious this time...with the air polution index reaching a level above 500 is dangerous indeed...But what can we do about this? stay indoors might be the best solution,so dont go to college..haha...

(Looks like Cameron Highlands huh?..haha...Its HAZEEEEEEEEE at TAR College)

Seems so violent huh?

2005-08-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

They look so cute ....
Kids must be attracted by it!!!..haha..
But! Think twice.....visithttp://happytreefriends.com
Enjoy!

Disappointing

2005-08-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

Its been quite sometime since the last time i updated this....
Well.just wanna say that i had a disappointing day today! Mostlys because of my exam results, i had been so attentive in class,doing all the tutorials , and try to understand everything that comes across.....too bad,the results were disappointing ,much lower than i expected...especially maths and further maths ,aimed for an A but at last only managed to get a range of 60 to 70....
which is a C if i am not mistaken...haih.... Hope things will change and i could do well in the next exam..

Missing someone

2005-07-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

Have u ever missed someone and feltterriblebecause u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?Missing someone is a terrible but at thesame time,sweet feeling.U will be sitting around wondering if umeantanything to him/her.Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.Rushing to the phone once it ringshoping that it'shim/her.Looking out of the window hoping thathe/she willsurprise u by appearing downstairs.Sitting in front of the television butthinking of him/hermissing the final episode of yourfavourite show.Laying on your bed, thinking of the lasttime u wenout together.Thinking of how nice it will be to situnder the starsagain, talking about everything, yourdreams,plans, future.Logging on to the internet hoping to seehim/heronline.When u realise that he/she isn't onlineand did notreturn your page, u will start worrying ifhe/she isokay.Missing someone is a way of growing up iguess.It exposes u to loneliness.It teaches u how to cope with beinglonely and let uknow that there is actually a feelingknown asemptiness.Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.U know that u really care and u indulgein thefeeling of loving/caring for him/her.But missing someone and not knowing ifhe/she isfeeling the same is terrible.U feel as if u are being left alone.So if u miss someone, tell him/her andlet themknow.At the same time, ask if they miss u.Don't let the feeling of missing someonebecomejealousy or paranoid.If u are the one being missed and u knowit, let theother party know.if u miss him/her too, tell them.Don't let them wait.God blessed...=)

Learning other languages can be fun!

2005-07-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

다른 언어를 배움것은 재미 이을 수 있는다 (learning other languages can be fun)
Well,i have a class mate who learns german language,so he influenced me to learn it too,he gave me this web site" http://babelfish.altavista.com is quite useful!!!It contains not only german language but also many other languages like japanese ,french...more.....
So,enjoy translating ......!!

Smart way to earn $$

2005-07-14T17:38:00.000+08:00

Source:F math lecturer
A computer expert was sitting beside an engineer inside a plane ...
As usual ,the computer expert will take out his lap-top and play around with it,it was no surprice to the engineer ..10 hours later..the engineer was soo surprise to see the computer expert still playing with his lap -top!!!Due to his curiousity,he asked"What r u doin with your lap-top?"The computer expert then proudly say that he is a computer expert and he also said that he could get any information in the world is in his lap-top!!
The computer engineer then challenged the engineer to ask him any questions....he will answer them with his lap-top...if he couldnt answer them he will give the engineer $5 but if the engineer couldnt answer the question the computer engineer ask.... then the engineer will pay him $3...The engineer agreed..The engineer asked him"What animal climbs a mountain with 4 legs then comes down with 3 legs??"So the computer expert then check it with his lap-top...surprisingly...he cant find the answer...so he gave $5 to the engineer...Later..the computer expert then ask the engineer the same question..the engineer didnt answer him and just give him $3.......

THE ABNORMAL WEDNESDAY

2005-07-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

"Oh god!!! i am late!"i told myself this morning,i should be getting up at 6 am but i was half an hour late!!!well,what to do ??No doubt , i went back to bed!!haha...afterall the first class is GP and there is nothing much to do in gp class,lame...... might get a warning letter soon....(^o^)
Later,i got up around 9 ,got prepared,went to the lrt station,( my next class is 11).
Surprisingly,some technical problems occured which affect the schedule of the lrt!It normally takes 40 to 45 minutes to reach T Melati station but it took 1 hour today!!!i was almost late for my chem class....
Besides,me and my friends planned to watch"initial D" today but it was cancled.....haih...feeling a little disappointed...!!!
(seems like everything is not going according to schedule and plan today,so i name it THE ABNORMAL WEDNESDAY)

JUST LAUGH ! ;-)

2005-07-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

Who killed Abraham Lincoln??
the teacher ask her year seven students.Everyone but Alan raised his hand to answer.
"Do u know Alan??"she asked.
"Damn it!I dont know and i dont care!"the boy yelled,arms crossed.
"Stop asking me stupid questions"
Upset,the teacher kept john after class and called his father for a conference.
"What is the problem?"Alan's dad asked when he arrived,"Why is my son in detention??"
"I asked Alan who killed Abe Lincoln and he cursed and said he didnt know and dednt care,and told me to stop asking him stupid questions"she said.
Furious with his son,the man grabbed Alan by the collar"Whats your problem son?"he shouted."If you killed the man ,just say so?!"

Monday = Mundane

2005-07-03T10:01:00.000+08:00

Chemistry,chemistry ...........and chemistry is the best word to describe monday,mainly it is because i have 4 and a half hours of chem plus tuition to go...(chem too) soo it will be SIX hours of chem on monday!!!!!!(Crazy????...nope...mundane) ....Well,six hours of chem is actually not that bad at all..the worst part is i am all alone.....!!!!!!!!!!If u read my previous article (The three musketeers)...so its one musketeer left behind during chem class.... ..two of the other musketeers dropped chem.....how sad....! Anyway,wish myself good luck!!!!All the best vc!!!!!

Time and tide wait for no man...

2005-06-29T16:01:00.000+08:00

whew.......!!we use to say "time" is precious and we should not waste time..."time and tide wait for no man"is indeed a great proverb to describe the situation i am at now...
With my college one hour away from my home, which is two hours to go there and come back... hence, i have lost two hours a day! On the other hand,my schedule is packed with classes and tuitions...then,the extra time remained will be occupied by all my tutorials(homework)....what about revision???i cant always burn the midnight oil as i got to get up early the next day...if i do sleep late,my concentration level will be very low...really low.....
I do believe that A-levels will be tougher in the future compared to now...as u know i just started it..with my examinations around the corner, i do feel stressful and lost at some stages ...
The importance of time management must be "emphasized"at this level,is there any problem with my time management??...

laughter (d best medicine)

2005-06-29T15:29:00.000+08:00

I read a joke from"reader's digest"recently........
Well,entertainiung and funny indeed, hope to share it with u guys...enjoy.:-)

-There were two patients in a ward...both of them..(really ill) they dont even have the strength to talk
-two weeks later,two of them manage to speak up and one of them said"john"..the other patient replied "peter"..after that,they pass off..
-two weeks later,john finally got the strength to say"52",then peter replied"60 "as expected,both of them pass out yet again.....
-surprisingly,both of them got up after two weeks and then john said "cancer",as usual,peter replied "sagitaurus"...

SUNDAY PHOBIA?

2005-06-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm..sundays should be relaxing,fun and to refresh yourself after a busy week...most people will just slack around the house or hang out with friends to watch a movie or maybe to have a cup of tea...sunday is just a great day for them!!!
Unfortunately, i am the the exceptional one,i really cant enjoy myself on sundays ,except for one thing..(if monday is a holiday);-) feeling s such as this is really stressful sometimes ,"moody & boring" are the words to describe everything ...

THE THREE MUSKETEERS

2005-06-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

The three musketeers i should call us!!!
This is the place where 3 of us used to hang out for lunch in college. (usually packed)
Notice anything wierd in this pic? (sure do huh?)
Yup!the guy on d left of this pic!why is he looking "somewhere" else but not the camera??
hmmm......let me guess ;-)
oh ya!!!!!guess who is taking this pic???
a)the wierd guy looking somewhere else
b)the guy in d meddle
c)the "handsome" guy on d right

tricky huh??

FIRST TIMER

2005-06-26T17:37:00.000+08:00

Well,its the first time i create my own blog, still not familiar with it!!!
Just hope 4 d best to come!!!:-)